What follows is one of my early pieces of writing. Originally, the text was a confused mess of past and present tenses, and of clauses that didn’t quite make sense. It was published back when Elfwood.com was still ‘the place’ to be and won a moderator award. I’ve dusted it down and polished it a little, but the story remains largely unchanged.
It was inspired by a couple of things. First and foremost was James Clavell’s Shogun. I loved this book – it was one of those stories I devoured from cover to cover in a matter of hours. The second thing that inspired me for this piece was the role-playing game, Legend of the Live Rings. Though both influences are present, this tale is its own thing – no fanfic here!
Enjoy,
Erratic.
I was trying to stop my hands from shaking as I washed them in the bowl of purified water. A vulture crowd of merchants and peasants had gathered, silently waiting for the blood to flow. The outcome didn’t matter to them – what did they care who the warlord was who ruled their village? There was so little they could do about it. Cherry blossoms were whipped up by the wind and fluttered around, painting the ground pink. The sword sat hungrily, a steel smile on a velvet cushion. To my right stood the spectre of my Wife, smiling knowingly as pink petals and green leaves danced through her body.
“What’s the problem?”
Father-in-law. He stood behind me and to the left, waiting to kill me – to hack off my head. His blade was already naked and thirsting. Without having to look, I knew he wore a nasty grin on his fat, sweaty face. He could not see my Wife, and I was glad of it.
“No problem,” I answered. I had to delay for just a little longer. My life, or maybe what is left of it, depended upon a visit, one that he wished desperately to avoid. Still, it would not have done to appear to delay. I picked up the blade, my grandfather’s sword, and examined its edge. The finish was (and still is) impeccable – it could slice daylight – certainly it could open my belly without a thought. As a child I was taught the history of this blade, beaten until I could recite without error every notable action it had taken. It was more family to me than the greasy idiot that stood ready behind to behead me.
“Are you ready? ” Father-in-law was keen. It was difficult to blame him really – I had slain his son with the very sword that was in my hands. I imagined he thought it fitting that the same sword be the one to take my life.
“Yes, yes, give me a moment to prepare.” I was surprised at how calm I sounded. From the corner of my eye, I saw Wife’s unwavering gaze. She would hate the sight of my death, but she was as much a samurai as I. I knew she would not avert her gaze.
Seeing her decorum steeled my nerves. There was no backing out now. Taking hold of the wakasashi in both hands, I placed the tip against my stomach. If you have never been a moment from death, you will never have experienced the crystal-like clarity of the senses. I could smell the fragrance of honey in a beehive twenty meters away in a tree. I could taste the sweat rolling down my father-in-law’s head. I could see the faint colours in Wife’s faint outline. The falling cherry blossoms were a cacophony.
I could hear the earth moving beneath the crackling sun.
A hush seemed to descend on the already silent crowd, a mist of anticipation rolling down a mountainside of half-people. Before my eyes they parted, heads hitting the dirt, as a samurai walked towards me, hand on his sword, the very picture of his clan’s cultivated air of arrogance. I repress the urge to smirk. He wore the same mon, the crest of his family, as Father-In-Law.
“Do it now!” urged Father-in-law. I ignore him – I knew he had already lost.
The samurai strutted over until he was standing ten feet from me. My senses receded from the world, back into my body. I feel relieved and dispirited all at once – to have touched nirvana only to have to concern myself with the earthly realm once more is a disappointment.
“Do it now,” said the newcomer, “and save yourself from true humiliation.” He glowered at me and I smiled pleasantly in return. I wanted him to attack, I needed to bait him. It was my only chance.
Patience is truly a virtue, although in truth I was still recovering from my out-of-body experience. I think it was the lingering state of no-mind that allowed me to feel the sword coming for me before even father-in-law had intended to strike. I rolled to the side, barrelling through the ephemeral shadow of my Wife. A forward roll brought me to my own katana and I drew it in a single breath. It sung from the saya. It wanted blood. It chorused in the fading light. The crescent of steel hummed with excitement. I have learnt about this sword since the the day I could talk, it was an extension of my body – of my will. With it in my hands, I felt complete. I felt invincible.
I stood there, katana and wakasashi bared, body relaxed but prepared in the scorpion stance. My eyes focused on the space between us, seeing nothing but everything. My senses became another sword, sharp and clear, another tool of death. I could taste the wind, I could taste cherry blossoms and sweat. I could hear the slightest movement of Father-In-Law behind me, recovering his stance, preparing to attack.
Long ago, my own father had, in his own way, taught me to use all the weapons I could muster to face my opponent. I was not the greatest swordsman, but I was skilled at finding the advantage in other ways. The deadliest knife is the one that strikes unseen.
“I see you still adopt the crane stance, Father-In-Law. I was taught that it was old fashioned even before you were born,” I taunted, remembering his touchiness about his age. Father-in-law still considered himself in his prime, while the rest of his clan considered that past long ago. He remained silent. Before me, the samurai stood as still as me, a mirror of sorts. “Perhaps if you had schooled your son in a more modern stance, he might not have died, begging for mercy, dishonouring the family name.”
“We used to call you brother,” growled the other samurai. His voice always reminded me of the sea, calm but with the threat of great menace. I smiled in answer and took a half step forwards.
As if waiting for a cue to attack, Father-in-law lunged from behind. His sword jabbed forward in a thrust meant to skewer me through the chest, metal sliding between my ribs and tearing through my lungs. He wanted to solve this situation himself, as I knew he would, and I side-step the blade.
My katana trilled with the spirit of a hundred generations of Murimoto samurai, and I performed the duty for him that he intended to perform for me. His severed head reeled in the dust, the eyes rolling and the teeth chattering. Father-in-law would speak no more. The crowd did not gasp, or boo or cheer. Even the other samurai remained impassive as decorum demanded. He was, at least, more dedicated to bushido than his younger sibling had ever been.
I smiled though my body remained still, poised at the end of the blade-stroke. “You can still call me brother, if the mood takes you.” I wanted to move, the blood of my father-in-law ran between my toes, warm and congealing.
“The mood has never taken me. Indeed, Murimoto, my mood inclines me to take your head.” He smiled his sly, nasty little smile. “You were the cause of my sister’s death. When my impetuous brother faced you, you killed him. Now you have beheaded my father. I will see you join them.”
“Why, brother, you speak as if I was the cause of all this death.!” My tone was incredulous. It was feigned, but I had a good deal of practice at pretending and at telling lies. The crowd was sucking in every word, as if their silence had created a void into which our words were impelled. What a place to air a family feud. “If I had had my way, your sister would still be alive, and I would still have my wife. “
“Wife?” the samurai laughed with derision. “Wife? Why, your marriage was nothing but a sham. Your wife never delighted in her duty to you.” His grip on the katana changed subtly. Wife made no move; she did not defend or condemn what either of us had said. Probably because we were both right, not that it mattered in the slightest – ‘appearances above truth’ she always used to mutter by way of advice. Still, his words cut too close to the truth for me to be comfortable. I had to parry.
When I spoke, I added a tone of pain to my voice. “And is that why you took her? Is that why you decided to pillow her? I understand that being adopted might have made your feelings a little confused, but a real samurai would never have tried to possess his sister.”
I had imagined facing Wife’s adopted brother many times. Each time, I thought I would be dressed in my armour, not stripped to the waist. I had imagined the only conversation we might have had was when I declared my lineage and then took his head. It seemed that things were not going to work out that way, however.
The samurai paused, seemingly gathering his composure. “That is a lie.” His words held more steel in them than I held in my hands. They were hissed from between clenched teeth.
“If it were a lie, then your sister would not have spoken it.” I spoke and recovered my stance, my sword pointed at Brother-In-Law’s heart. “She could not bare the shame of your actions and begged to commit seppuku. She committed it in any case, even after I had forbidden it. It seems your family are all cursed with rashness.” I laughed at the last part, wriggling my toes in the evidence of my words though it was another lie. My heart ached. There would be no trial, no judgement made here by man. Only the swords would decide who was correct.
I didn’t have long to wait.
He stuck first, the sun glinting from my blade struck him in the eyes and, blinded, he missed. My sword led my arm in a glittering arc. It was a short dance, one mere stroke, and his head joined his fathers in the dirt.
I blinked and then remembered to inhale. The duel had ended far too quickly.
I stood there until the wind sends cherry blossoms to dance around me in celebration of my victory. My wife moved without walking to my side, and knelt.
‘My Lord’ she said to me in words not uttered as much as felt. ‘Your plan has come to pass. The life that my father gave you to command has now given you the clan and lands you coveted. You ordered my death, now please honour our agreement and allow me to pass on.’
I smiled at the wife I had asked to die for me, “You may go, my wife.” She had truly been samurai , valuing duty above life. Her already diminished form began to evaporate before me. And then rain began to fall, pelting down with great force like a volley of arrows. When I was soaked through and the rains had washed the stain on my soul, I walked to the gathered army, the former vassals of father-in-law, and take my place as their master.
As my wife and I had planned all along.